My Brothers Best Friend

s I wanted to tell him, but I kept my mouth shut cause I knew what would happen if I e

g was I out for? I jumped up and ran down the stairs. No one was there. I ran to the

min?" my heart stopped beating and my palms became sweaty. I turned around to be face t

stepped down the stairs and walked right up to him. I stood for a second before lifting my right hand and bringing it

id I even care? He hurt me! Anger flushed straight back in and I walked over to him meeting his

ou shag her then you come and . . . and have sex with me!" That's it, let it all flow out. "I'm not something

ng me up and dropping me to the floor. I fell on my back and hit my head on the f

ted back and brought my foot

angry with you! You used me!" I saw his hand rise, but I couldn't yank my own away in time. He pulled me down

remember you k

kiss you again! You let it happen too!" I tried to move but

re to just hit me like that?!" I stopped

k me to my core. "I'm just another one of those girls you. . .you . . . fucked and used..." his eyes changed and

ou cry' My mother's wor

d. My tears had already begun to surface the minute I opened the front door. But now they were coming out

y face from view. I heard the door open but didn't move. When the door closed, I heard someone coming c

n those

. I didn't care about why I was feeling like this, I just wanted to swim in the feeling and never move. I rested my head on

e feel better? What the hell was happening?! "I never meant that . . . I just . . ." he broke off and I knew what he was saying. "You just . . . I can't explai

. like he was hiding the truth from me, but I didn't want to get into to that now. "You were right ... I have no right to be mad with you

He left and my head banged against the wall with a sigh. What the fuck is wrong with you? Snap out of it! You're going crazy,

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t and walked bac

king. Shut up! He's ugly, ugly! I shook my head and asked where. "Um well they all wanted to go ou

into the sitting room holding a can of beer. Wow. That moo

uess

pair of skinny black jeans and a red tank top. I ran downstairs and I was about to open my mouth to

er on the side and started to walk when I felt his hand take mine. I looked down at him and saw his deep dark

s lips met mine and he was licking my bottom lip, asking for permission to enter, I opened my mouth and felt him explo

ss.

t the time on my watch. . . seven thirty. I was sleeping . . . so it was a dream. I sighed with relief and walked out of the shed toward

t he did almost kiss me but for some reason pulled away. Of course, that last bit isn't so comforting. When I reached the

e what was wrong with him, and that part won. I stood in the door frame and took a few steps towards him befo

n I was fully in front of him. He lowered his hands

e sighed and looked to the side, "What's wrong?" I could see he wasn't gonna answer me, so I s

know why." I looked down to the floor, but I knew his gaze was still on me. "I . . . I. . . I " he cut off; I couldn't get any words out of my

ys happening? Why

e feel of his touch. All my insanity vanished, and I was alone with him. My hands traveled up to his

at least . . . I still be

led the air around us, my body backing up and hitting the wall. "I . . . don't . . . th

supposed to happen like that." His voice tense. God, I just

he floor. Ok, fine, it's one thing to not want something like this to happen again but it's a completely different thing

my head. I figured it was right, I mean I can't explain why I feel the way I do, or why I can't get him out

You've fucked me up enough as it is." I spat at him, the venom in my voice clear. At that, I l

ABE WH

I AINT

LATER. HO

ng of him and the dream that I wanted to come true. I wonder what would have happened if