The Yellow Wallpaper
rt for me to think straight. Jus
st carried me upstairs and laid me on the bed, a
t and all he had, and that I must take c
it, that I must use my will and self-control
nd happy, and does not have to occupy t
fortunate escape! Why, I wouldn't have a child of mine, an
ky that John kept me here after all, I can
them any more-I am too wise,-but
t paper that nobody kno
attern the dim shapes
same shape, onl
behind that pattern. I don't like it a bit. I wonder-I
about my case, because he is so
ied it l
oon shines in all aroun
creeps so slowly, and always co
I kept still and watched the moonlight on t
ed to shake the pattern, jus
and see if the paper DID move, an
said. "Don't go walking abou
told him that I really was not gaining her
se will be up in three weeks, an
anger, I could and would, but you really are better, dear, whether you can see it or not. I am a doctor, dea
my appetite may be better in the evening when you are
be as sick as she pleases! But now let's improve the shinin
go away?" I a
n we will take a nice little trip of a few days while Jenn
for he sat up straight and looked at me with such a st
ill never for one instant let that idea enter your mind! There is nothing so dangerous, so fascinating, to a te
ught I was asleep first, but I wasn't, and lay there for hours trying to decide whe
is a lack of sequence, a defiance of law, t
reliable enough, and infuriating en
llowing, it turns a back-somersault and there you are. It slaps you in
u can imagine a toadstool in joints, an interminable string of toadstools,
s, som
r, a thing nobody seems to notice but myself, a
lways watch for that first long, straight ray-it c
y I watch
ll night when there is a moon-I w
ight, and worst of all by moonlight, it becomes bars! The outsi
ing was that showed behind, that dim sub-pat
is the pattern that keeps her so still. It i
. John says it is good for
t by making me lie down fo
t I am convinced, for
eceit, for I don't te
getting a littl
times, and even Jennie h
st as a scientific hypothesis,
m suddenly on the most innocent excuses, and I've caught him several times LO
the most restrained manner possible, what she was doing with the paper-she turned around as i
hed, that she had found yellow smooches on all my cloth
was studying that pattern, and I am determin
see I have something more to expect, to look forward to, to
hed a little the other day, and said I seemed
telling him it was BECAUSE of the wall-paper-he woul
ave found it out. There is a week m
ch at night, for it is so interesting to watch de
it is tiresome
ew shades of yellow all over it. I cannot keep c
e think of all the yellow things I ever saw-not beautif
came into the room, but with so much air and sun it was not bad. Now we have had
all over
skulking in the parlor, hiding in the h
into m
turn my head suddenly and sur
spent hours in trying to analyze
y gentle, but quite the subtles
wful, I wake up in the night
. I thought seriously of burni
ng I can think of that it is like is
k that runs round the room. It goes behind every piece of furniture, except t
what they did it for. Round and round and rou
discovered som
t night, when it changes s
move-and no wonder! The
behind, and sometimes only one, and she crawls
ill, and in the very shady spots she just
ut nobody could climb through that pattern-it stra
n strangles them off and turns them u
ered or taken off it wo
oman gets out
ou why-privatel
ut of every one
r she is always creeping, and mo
es, creeping along, and when a carriage c
ust be very humiliating to be
aylight. I can't do it at night, for I k
him. I wish he would take another room! Besides, I don't
ould see her out of a
can, I can only see o
er, she MAY be able to cr
f in the open country, creeping as f
gotten off from the under one! I
, but I shan't tell it this time! It
per off, and I believe John is beginning to
f professional questions about me.
pt a good deal
ep very well at night,
estions, too, and pretended
ldn't see t
acts so, sleeping under t
feel sure John and Jennie
enough. John is to stay in town over nig
thing! but I told her I should undoub
on as it was moonlight and that poor thing began to cra
she pulled, and before morning we
gh as my head and h
awful pattern began to laugh at me,
moving all my furniture down again
, but I told her merrily that I did it
uldn't mind doing it hersel
rayed herse
person touches this
quiet and empty and clean now that I believed I would lie down again and sle
ngs are gone, and there is nothing left but that great bed
rs to-night, and take t
he room, now it
ldren did tea
ead is fai
ust get
and thrown the key do
I don't want to have anybo
to asto
did not find. If that woman does get ou
not reach far without
d will
e, and then I got so angry I bit off a litt
sticks horribly and the pattern just enjoys it! All those strangled head
te. To jump out of the window would be admirable
I know well enough that a step like tha
ws even-there are so many of those cr
l come out of that
by my well-hidden rope-you don'
back behind the pattern when i
ut in this great room and
tside. I won't, even
on the ground, and everythin
and my shoulder just fits in that long smo
n at the door!<