The Boy I Swore To Hate

ore than Damien Blackwood, it wa

st just how much hatred a seventeen-year-old girl c

, reviewed my scholarship notes twice, and decided that Ethan Cole's

bab

to tell anyone about

t

raying me. I needed answers before allowing suspici

needed to win the

g else co

d Literature carrying a stack of papers and the expression of a

orning,

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stopped

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go," he

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rs spread throug

his hand f

eges that confidential examination materials have been accessed improperly and that on

ach tig

m suddenly f

id, "both candidates will be required to complete

urned towa

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ean?" someone ask

ngle research project. You will submit a joint report, and both candidates will be evaluated on t

oom e

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due respect,

on looke

pla

cholarship. How can we be expected to coll

ed. "The committee wants to see whether you can

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solutely certain th

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carrying a si

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believe in p

elieve in tra

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the libr

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t him withou

ibrary, behind a narrow corridor lined with old p

y first year, when we had be

, old paper, and f

al cabinets lined the walls, and several boxes of

Mrs. Bennett, wa

an expression that suggested she had little patienc

t. Mr. Bl

nod

orking on the Sterling

'am," I

nd justice. The committee wants a rigorous academi

a folder on

ermitted to remove any documents from the archive room. I

en n

erst

tt looked

storical records. Some contain sensiti

e folder and a list

nds, neither Dam

ulled out

l we

opposi

ation and public perception. You can foc

ed an e

the diffi

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d under h

when you're try

tightened a

d I'll use this pen to rem

ot

gan w

inutes, things were su

ad always known that, even

e documents, and asked questions that forc

irrit

also im

d both

e slid a page a

at t

nced

student had been accused of leaking examination questions, but the i

ssued an apol

months

corrected t

ship was withdrawn and his f

oked

xpression

e," he continued. "Sometimes the truth come

his voice m

got that we were su

remem

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oked

torical disci

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ression

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aned

what I t

his notes wit

his hand had tighte

ered whether my questions hurt

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e had made subst

for the project and gathered enough e

t when Damien reached acr

d brush

ll, insignif

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y as though the table had s

n not

se he n

art. I do

what I'm wor

lifted

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a terrib

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at I had told him

e connection because a fa

how tha

nd reached for

elbow knocked ov

up ti

the table, soaking se

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ers, but Damien w

m the spreading water and grabbe

frantic silence, rescuing what we

s this destruc

red a

lways this

special o

myself,

as b

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etely inc

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saying

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didn't think yo

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said, "M

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ccepted wha

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ne and explained the so

d our notes

rly like your focus on the difference bet

ced at

oking at

tt closed

ntains records from the school's student council and dis

ntion s

eriod,

tely two y

nt comple

didn't appe

even. You may review them tomorrow

ered her

ve closes at five-thirty. I exp

t, I turned t

years

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records have somethi

answer i

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agreed with one of my suspi

me more than I

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ked my

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was leaving school and he

owed a few

ront doors, the rain

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looked

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him a f

someone who pl

ally,

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pack and pulled ou

d him un

rrying an

e of us prepare for th

ted

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ye, Da

d toward

tention with a

top

umbrella o

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abou

surv

sita

l gesture. An umbr

ppened between us, I couldn't un

" I a

almost unc

farther from the

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tened around

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d walked in the o

brella, watching him d

underst

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ly wasn't fal

op thinking about the way he had lo

about something he despera

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g, I arrived at scho

barely

ause of

t I told mys

sages, and the possibility that the answers to Daniel's sca

xisted, I need

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staircase, his expres

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What do

took a

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ly what I want

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d me for

eached fo

ifficult lately. I just do

down at

on his wrist caugh

se qui

acelet I had seen

withdre

ooked c

eli

ced a

to get t

ore he could ask

ng so hard I could

years trus

e would never del

e had been standing near Daniel and Dam

had never m

-

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he back, pretending to read whi

t the chair

avoidi

n't l

study

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heet of paper

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leaned

something gives peop

s hung b

I saw past the arr

exha

e

protect himself by pret

what had happened

urned to Westbridge and what he

I could spe

the archive

lked

o, my heart bea

had destroyed my brother's life that I had never consider

the most da

hatred w

e me someo

lackwood meant questioning

sure I was re

-

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k, its metal drawers labeled w

it and showed us the f

nything that appears to involve a serious disciplinary matter, report it

rstand,"

en n

ft, we bega

ng minutes, student council repor

hem were

der labeled with the year Daniel'

pene

mmary of the investigation, and

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t was D

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began t

names w

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one had

ed at

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his eyes

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say my name like you're about to explain som

oked

what their in

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ver thought

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n't have b

hed bi

for me as though I'm incapa

ot what I

t are you

down at

the truth without pu

n't get to decide what r

ing slipped from the back of th

ll en

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written acro

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at it. Neith

bent down and

lope was

dark blue ink, in a handwrit

roth

ed at

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wall

on't

sion told me he was afraid

pen the

ingle folded

t with tremb

sage wa

EL

OUT OF IT. DON'T TRUST THE STORY THEY TOLD YOU. AND WH

the word

. At the bottom, Daniel had

RAYED ME IS SOMEON

h left m

mi

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mot

one

he letter as though it had opened a door h

original?"

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pped

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lly met

e had returned to Westbridge,

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was appr

aining papers and push

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ly and slipped it

stopped out

cross the narro

meone k

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came from t

en? I know yo

d turne

longs to the last person I ex

an

ad been my fr

ppeared in the old i

standing beside my brother

me and whispered so qui

, don't tell him

nob began

on had just become something much m

ret someone had hi

ng from the silence on the other side of th