Loving You Was the Lie

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Your Body

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what made

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let

the windows. I watched them pass and trie

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d withou

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tell me that he wo

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my father had them working on the wrong leads. When yo

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me, Bella. You stood beside me when everyone warned you not to. I thought if I

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spent sixteen year

it ti

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ying to reconcile the neat little l

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d someone

t someone would

eft myself

faced, sharp enough

of me, holding the lock

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t

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on the inside of the clasp

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saw the truth in his fa

of the girl who

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name inside a lo

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wasn't your m

m went

couldn't hear the hum of the refrige

hear was my

photograph of

I had writt

nside a locket that had been hangin

the one thing that

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ver had

was what my fat

, if Luca had known her and I had forgotten her, then

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lessandro why your sister was wearing

oked

d read it ove

had known him, my husband

fire, whatever they had taken from me, the worst

out which sist