being a good person meant
eep your promises. Don't hurt
ist, and for most of my
ything that might jeopardise the future I had planned for myself. My mother liked to
er students came to me when they needed notes b
being th
people
o did the r
hing Liam Mercer walk away from me, I began to wond
seen that post
nonymous account had sen
comments beneath it. I remembered feeling sick when I realised how m
ed the post
repeated to myself whene
report
ioned was what ha
and Tessa told me the whole thing had been exaggerated. She said Ruby had been chasing a boy who never l
ted to be
mitting that my best
tayed
rrying the consequences of s
rpe
oked
entrance. He was staring at me w
coming
t the phone
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a
of his answer
are you
terested in getting another lecture from the school ove
open the l
nged your mind abo
wed him
ether to be reli
ably
int cinnamon scent of the coffee shop next door. Sunlight
ght for the local
trying to ignore the fact that we had
g with enough historical material for a proper feature, b
the jour
ists for the purpos
are you
red a
om the shelf and gl
I'm th
oing it without
at me over
tion without sounding like y
uth c
k to the shelf and
examined old photographs and local newspaper clippings. Despite his attitude, he was surprisingly
of Maplewood's old industrial district, he l
ld work,"
to him, s
gree w
ke it a b
was
you wanted to fra
ut I felt the corne
nce yesterday that I had
mo
phone
ge from
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ped
did you mean by tha
ame almost
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d at th
a screenshot o
seconds, not
typing indica
s two years ago
he messa
Tessa had been fifteen. Ruby h
all bee
s had been the su
knew she was
didn't know it wo
allo
making fu
g those things. I
he words unti
nary. If everyone did it, nobody was responsible. If something happened a long time ago, nobody ha
se explanations because I wante
d been loyal or simply afraid
d n
ulled me out o
my phone
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the phone, t
unded co
se focus on
for a moment bef
ur
n't as
on, that made
n a box of archived
thout work. Local residents had organised a community campaign to save the town's public sp
Industrial Road, although
campaign," I said, making notes. "Find out what ha
ded photograph of
about it because they n
a good
hrug
obvi
can still be wor
oked
he didn't
ees. We would need to visit the town archives, speak to someone
ld be thoughtful and well researched, the kind of featu
hat might help me
arship more than I
about proving that all the hours I had spent studying, editing articles,
, but I knew what things cost. I knew how carefully she planned our expenses, how often
e her a reason
od for college knowing I
come a journalist
ship, the more I realised how much I had
knew me as a responsible student. My application include
eing bullied and stayed silent, would they stil
ross the ta
t the youth centre, one finger res
treating his family as
of person who stood up f
chance to do exactly that, I
down at
I was trying to protect my future or prote
ibrary shortl
eld the list of possible interviewees. The air had turne
we reached the corner whe
an apolog
sto
r w
ing you about
e me an apolo
ed you were guilty of everyt
away towar
ssume I wa
sita
l the answe
ig
trying to
be h
, but something in it
to me. Don't say you believe me because you want me to l
o be suspended without anyone
not what
my grip on
leb. I know you hit him, and I know there has
hy
se of
d at the mentio
re guarded, as though I had reached for a do
ou know ab
have t
, that I had reported it privately, and that I
ng between us, wait
n. My mother's pride. The possibility that Li
Tessa, even after every
said n
a humour
what I t
d me the
at home
re I could find the
t, watching him disapp
nd that I wasn't like the pe
en him another rea
preparing dinner when I
our projec
in
d over her
t fi
re going to write abou
unds int
d back to
called this
mach d
hy
and Liam online. The vice principal wanted to
my eyes
cou
been no
urs affecting your schoolwork. Y
now,
ned to
p, and I believe we should be there for people when they need us. But that d
red a
oblem isn't ent
ther
oes tha
g that maybe people don'
with it. You have your o
, but I heard the
ut of
hat you'v
e this yo
ining that it had already become my probl
I sat at my desk a
Inside were my grades, recommendation letters, personal statemen
the persona
at journalism mattered because people dese
it thre
osed the
bear to l
ibrated on
nown n
han Tessa because you rep
up str
message
ruth when Ruby needed someone. Y
ers wen
, Who i
ly came
remembers
een, my heartbeat p
al message
orgive you, stop pret
he phone on
creaked in
oom door just as Liam's
nd, I wondered whether
face when I had failed to answer
ous account to tell me I
enough reason
ok from my freshman year. I kept it because I used
ges until I found the da
written in the
Mer
own handwriting,
. Don't let
t reminder to mys
en under
ad done nothin
it against my chest, unable t
have to work beside him, speak to him, and pretend I c
no longer staying
new what
nted me to
I was going to lose the one thing I ha
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