tching the darkness until the grandfather clock chimed
marriage, everything important fit in one bag. My who
plained. I'd learned to disappear because I had to. Some women became experts at hiding bruises; I be
n the upsta
it would be Naomi's. Down the hall, Lily's door stood slightly open, her
dn't look insi
the blanket. Asleep, she looked just as she had as a baby, without the tense, guarded se
want you
kiss her forehead, and breathe in her warm hair. I wanted to say
r bed as Mary's sharp words and Nicholas's silence closed around me until there
, baby," I
yed o
e narrow door at the end of the ha
ase. The straps had stiffened in the cold. For a moment, I wondered if taking it m
k it
dn't thrown away-probably because
t grass, the cello case bumping my hip, and stopped beneath
I planted it twice more. After the second
ud. It felt wrong, like reaching for s
anyone, I told mys
true, and lately I had litt
kept looking at his phone. Nobody notices
nd slick under the streetlights. Rain misted d
hip people still remembered me, perhaps Grasse. Or a city I'd never seen, with a room, one window, and a
ist of wha
reathe lavender before an
without apologizi
bed without a
grance with my na
man who wasn't someone's
much. My e
had worn so thin that a little light got through. And once it did, I couldn't ignor
n choose
ibrated in
from the f
ere are you? We ne
2:41. It
was the first time he'd used it with me all
la
g, dying, loving him until I'd lost myself. I imagined his quick reply,
d off t
ack in m
ckened, tapp
at the crosswalk with my suitcase and
le. The whole city slept, and s
urned green, and I st
g behind me, somewhere to the left. I loo
rain, coming straight at me so fast they seemed frozen, l
s scr
horror sharpe
green, I thoug
he car
spin into the dark as my suitcase burst open and clothes scattered across
as dark a
sleeping, h
ght. I didn't even
ed up, and everything
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