ise
building. Blaze's words echoed in my head, a cru
s another woman's shadow. All my efforts, all my obed
like a knife against my skin
wave of nausea. I leaned against a brick wall, gagging, m
nt. More physical. The feeling
friend, Fiona. I answered, t
astard is getting engaged?" Fiona's voi
to her voice, the tears I'd been holdin
hing was wrong. "What's wrong? Are you crying?
ant nausea, trying to blam
econds. Then she asked a que
ve you missed
ed to open my phone's calendar app. The last
ppening, I had com
rmacy right now and get a pregnancy test. No, don't go your
ing to ice. It couldn't be. We al
had been drinking heavily, more reckless and roug
ically hailed a cab, giving the add
ghost. I had my blood drawn and t
a century. My palms wer
y name. I walked into her office feelin
tle smile on her face. "Congratulations, Ms. Rogers. T
. I was
used me as a substitute and wa
world be more absurd
precautions, about nutrition
ng the thin piece of paper. It f
the people hurry by, feeling comp
mall life was growing here. A child that shou
couldn't bring a child into the world under such awful circumst
s a knife to my own heart, but my ratio
k back into the clinic a
hoto-a picture of me with my late grandmother. In the phot
wish was to see me have
et st
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