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goes still on my

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and look a

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you called me today." She touches

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and I am twenty-six years old and I have just left a man who never really wanted me and

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set the test face down on the counter an

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ink about the guest room phone and heels on my hardwood floor and my mother sitting at the kitchen counter wai

on my phon

ick up the

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time. No amb

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say anything

round the counter, and sits

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and solid and still has no opinions about me, and my mother sits cross-leg

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telling h

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t me for a

ely." She covers my hand with hers. "But you are not

oor and I feel something loosen in my

to lea

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against the cabinet. "Somewhere that doe

squeezes

find some

not saying very much, while the casserole finishes in the ove

in any apartment in fourteen mont

nst the cabinet and think abo

a language I speak at a level my high school Frenc

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become someone