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sm
otato in that dress," Mia said with a small laugh, like she was mak
her throug
er phone, barely paying attention to me. Her eyes flicked up
-thick girl like me. You'
e I pushed it aside. I turned slowly in fro
ell softly over my hips. Jason had picked it for me two w
, and the stupidly proud smile on his
oked
would look in it,
nd shrugged. "I'm sixty-tw
sides, Jason got it for me.
up properly. "I'm
esn't
dropped her phone beside her. "Whatev
e dress. "There's nothing wrong with a man who loves reading," I
at's because you
arefully before putting it back into my wardrobe. "
h. "If your plan is to c
e faded. I turned
ven looking
ng my comb down. "You know what, M
ediately. "Did I sa
yes. But ins
o study for my ass
ike she didn't completely belie
ee you t
ea
up her ba
door closed. I sat on the edge o
lled it honesty, but sometimes I wondered
ed and
fore opening my notes, I reache
d almost i
ed, and I smile
e she
wider. "H
r another second and fr
ked. "
look
hen I laughed quie
for a second before he smiled
inside my
nd changed
ur after that. Mostly nons
d, "So what are w
ened even more.
odd
e ye
ng it fel
n spend the day together,
a smile. "That
maybe..." He paused before continuing more
a little. I loo
son
face changed to
"Oh." He looked away bri
and shook
what? It
him before that I wasn't ready, and he
acted unde
ou have your assessment the
does that have to
orrow, go to the
, but he
ours. Then spend the r
yes. "Wow. Ve
e to step
d at hi
lecturers. Wrong grading," he said. "
bout that. I wan
ded anywa
oftened. "
ediately. "L
ed, I stared at my
ct. I could feel it in my bones. I tried to read after
ay, I woke
blanket and stared at the ceiling w
g after a few months were normal now,
ghts that never lasted, shared routines, random gifts, pati
n there throu
out of bed, I re
the keyboard for a momen
to you every day. Thank you for being patient with me, for understanding me, and for makin
er sending it and smiled to mys
but that didn't bother me. Instead,
re quick, but not toda
to details I normally rushed through. The steam war
ly at myself an
made me smile, because it
e me feel guil
be today was the day I was going to finall
heat creep into m
way from t
le-library first,
that was
tled into my usual seat near the window,
realized I'd read the s
and close
as hop
e. Surely one afternoon
ed putting everything back
nt straight to pick up the watch I'd already
tely regr
nd and left. But somehow, ten awkward minutes later, I was carrying
had started doing strange things. I stare
wondering if I'd regret changing somethi
diately sho
m, and Jas
ould be
ldn'
, we'r
d realized w
and ste
t-and for a moment, everyt
walked toward his house
o my purse fo
pau
r wasn'
was u
pen. "Jason?" I called, b
osed the door behind me
as
l no
led f
be I'd su
king my time. I was halfway
top
it was-just a faint sound-but w
cr
pulled
ound again, but then there was som
crept into my ches
hed under
ag in my hand and smiled nervously-maybe he wa
nstead, something about the silence ar
ow. And the closer I got to his room
new what my eyes were seeing through th
e shopping bags. My pulse quic
o
o
sita
open, and my eyes
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