I hold the picture against my chest. He raise
like he has all the time in the wor
whisper, my voice br
photo and then back
e Ian?" The memory of Carla's face streaked with tears over a boy who just
of my own heart against my ribs. I watch his throat move as
oing to
very rule I've ever had for myse
touch me? Afte
istance. It's almost as if he can tell I'm a live
ved you. She never got over you. She mourned you for years, and you
quieter now. "We were young.
can't believe I let this happen to me. I tak
s and you knew she
you, Diane" He uses my real name, and it feels like a we
st defence?" I
e when a business deal went sideways, when he was losing control.
fast, the air thin and useless in my lungs. "I don't even know
gathering in their depths
yes, a dismissive gesture
arp, cutting through my disbelief. "I
his arms around her. Then, I look at him to find the same tattoo on
the way I looked and felt about myself. So I changed everything about me. Cut ties
r to me and I
go, so I changed my name. And I really did want to let you
mbling with a fury that's quickly
the muscle twitching. "Because I did
e wh
looking at
cal blow. I shake my head, trying to clear
e low and dangerous. "But I liked
the truth?" I say, my vo
es
tly. "You don't get to keep the version of me that doesn't know better," I say
kno
didn't you
from his skin becomes a dizzying distraction from my anger and hurt. Close enough to feel the traitorous pull in my blood.
ing that like i
iately with a certaint
close. He w
canning my face. "The way you avoid anything that fee
, my voice shaking. "They keep people like
g hurt," he says, his voice not mocking, but r
ord tearing out of me. "I
ce is so gentle i
of my fury. "You wanted a fresh start, a clean slate, and I
returns almost immediately.
challenge, my chin
tension etched around his mouth. "Dangerous," he says quietly. "You were the first thing in month
esn't ju
" he says, his voice ra
try ha
I liked that you didn't see my past, that you didn't compare me to the boy
on a lie," I spit. Were
his control finally fracturin
nveniently l
ts and I sigh
a hollow ache. "I've been blindsided before. I've been the girl
pid," he says,
s tasting like ash in my mouth. "Wi
says, his voice low and intense. "Don't you
re of shame and anger. "That
s gaze dropping to my lips. "This mes
to mine and I swallow hard. "You don't get to act like this doesn't affect
s a mi
his voice leaving no room
. "You don't regret it," he says, his voice sof
sure. I hate that he's ri
his voice makes me want to scream, or
believably
evably drawn to me
rk to gasoline. "Don't,"
cause it
t my silence is a
to mine. "I didn't tell you because I kn
ybe I s
t's a statement of fact. "You're standing here, fight
You don't get to psychoanalyze me
. "Fine," he says sharply, his voice like a blade of ic
e's pivoting and I'm
"You're angry because you felt something real last night. And now you don't kn
ast the betrayal, and into the messy, terrified core o
rhythm that feels utterly foreign to my own ragged breaths. Th
emotion. "If we're done dissecting my identity
I snap, my confusi
more import
important than him being Ian?
, flat and unreadab
mind a blank slat
ent to sink in. My mind races through pos
s, his voice terrifyingly ca
This is a joke. My lips form the wor
n Harrington," he
numb fingers, fluttering to
held me like I was something fragile and worth fighting for? Or is it Ian, the ghost from Carla's past? Or is this someone else entirel
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