get you
m o
son in the world who looks good under fluorescent lights. They enhance his somberness, the m
g, so I clear my throat and try to
. "You'
ian's girlfriend. H
smells like rich vanilla and oaky musk. The watch on his wrist
. childhoo
when he was a boy. He doesn't-um, he did
ot sur
ng there in an uncomfortable silence. "What wa
noy
ow, I'm okay with that. I'm not sure a smile would even suit him. Every line on his chiseled face looks like
start cleaning up. I think of asking her to wait, but then the commingled scent o
es. "Someth
as I fight back the waves of my roiling stomach. "Bu
He goes perfectly still, and the blue of his eyes seem to split and shatter.
s a question only in t
out recently. So recent in fac
"Come with me." He takes my elbow and helps me o
are we
rom the
pools of violet shade. He leads me to a bench tucked beneath one a
I'm seated. He arches one eyebr
out here." When his eyebrow stays arched, I blush. "You smell
ks without inflection or a smile. It makes me fe
pering of mourners was weirdly grating. Out here, the same kinds of abstra
the cut?" he
it until other people mention it. "I wal
door have
Yes," I whisper, because I know instinctively that
H
n rises up in my throat out of nowhere, hot and thick, choking me. I swallow i
ka
eath. "Were you
wers vaguely. "We grew
m the moment we met. It ought to be unsettling, but for some reason, it's the exact opposite. "Can you
ed to climb. Trees, buildings, rock faces. I used to tell him that on
out it. The material of his suit is soft as butter. I let go a
eriden Motel. Busted right through a lattice and tore his knee to ri
hat Adrian was a boy once. A reckless boy, by the sound of it, but
ut that," I murmur. "There are so man
l, but something sort of like that. Then he stands and straightens his cuffs.
ng." I'm oddl
eight. The sun is at his back and filtered through the willow branches, so his face is dapple
se, in the context of today, it's appropri
able of it-but his features do soften a little. Then he inclines
d resting on my belly and the
ole point of motherhood is that I'll never be alone again, right? I try to find s
's a single light aimed at the stage. Light music plays in t
'm da
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