Boys Like Him

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d I slipped inside, exhaling like I'd been

sized shirt, and started dinner. Nothing fancy, l

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hit like static

at down, scrolled through my phone to distract myself, messages from Mariah, a meme she said "looked like

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as a liar when

e to the sink, rinsed it twice, and then once

self that was good, that the quiet was what

st anyway. I brushed my teeth and

fault my body had apparently decided to rewrite its entire ch

he texture of them. The way they scraped dow

too heavy. I could smell my own shampoo, that faint vanilla clinging to the pillowcase, and it only mad

grip,

loud, cocky, probab

ved rather than earned. I shut my eyes and tried to erase it. Instead, his laughter threa

l it was almost phy

been... triggered by something, and I hated it, the way it refused to lis

bout him, maybe I could neutralize him, find some proof that he was just

eted it. Typed again. The search bar bl

him. My thumb hovered before adding our campus name. A small, stupid hope whispered

freshed. And

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hing needs to

never had to figure things out, t

red beneath his leap. The next was a grin, with his teeth flashing, and arms spread as i

and a lay-up, yet I scrolled like I'd been starving for this. Each imag

was an avalanche of heart emojis and drooling faces.

d then my thumb slipped, followed immediately by a s

low

orror to register. My stomach

no, n

the algorithm would be merciful. My pulse was so loud it drowned out the room. I sta

it come

s, and now I was the kind of girl

cave in and bury me before morning. But even then, the thought of him wouldn't fade. I

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. To block him, erase the conversation

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