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an five minutes. Yet, I am still on t

taring at the mess on the floor? What would my husband do when he returns? W

the door with my palms,

of blood

t has wrapped itself around me, but something keeps me pushing. I don't know what

ks like a lot of getting there while crawling. B

allway, kicking me until I am gasping for breath. Tea

n getting into my bedroom. After what feels like forever, I fina

phone against my ear after dialling the o

hould be asleep by now, but his voice sounds so alert. "Roxanne, are

to stop myself. "There's .

s before saying, "I'll be there as fa

ing the call, I lay my head on the rug and succumb t

ng in the background and the sickening smell of antiseptic in the a

ry to sit up. Everythin

strong, warm hands pushing me back into the bed. "You only j

per, closing my eyes. "Ca

ust as I hear the door. "Y

There is another person in the room, the one who spoke to me when I opened

e doctor starts. "H

ed," I

enser in the room, grabbing me a cup. I drink

ls much

e pain." The doctor's voi

an't feel

time i

shadows responds. "You

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is shit. "I can't believe you're asking of h

nd he has never been a fan of Reese from the very first day, but they

to achieve since Reese b

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to speak, but p

od?" I say instead, loo

y got there when they

from how long my husband has reminded me of my barrenness, pain from when I s

head. A bout of dizziness hits immediately, but I am too overwh

e doctor. "My husband and I h

a lot to save your baby. I guess congratulations are in ord

lifted into the air. And then, the heaviness drop

" I whisper. "I'

ersonally making a decision where my body is conc

n

we can properly monitor you, but you

fore speaking. "Don't tell me you're pl

g back into bed. "I have to go

e one last look before storming out. He will come aro

of the room. He angles his head. "I'm thankful you didn't listen to

t ni

ertility." He repeats my words from the party as he saunters clos

comes int

is piercing

nt," his lips barel