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ds and no life other than the phony ones I lived vicariously through on TV. And I'd always been like this, hadn't I? I used to

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lly would have smiled at, but I only looked blank faced at the television, suddenly th

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y second glass of wine as the storyline on TV cut to stupid, ugly Gail and walked quickly to the window for want of anywhere else, noting it was a very nice, early June day outside

vin after meeting him in my senior year, the only boy I'd ever dated, because no other boys would ask. Because I was boring. Kevin probably only asked because, at the time, he'd been having his severe under-bite fixed and the stainless steel braces screwed to his jaws made him

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good look for the first time in my life, it seemed, hardly abl

natural body. I'd gained weight since Kevin left. Not much, just enough to make me a little chubby with wider hips, bigger, (D cup now) softer breasts. I remembered a time when I w

rst the back door and stood for a moment before throwing myself into a deckchair on my veranda. I closed my eyes against a sudden need to cry, demanding that I stop feeling sorry for myself as my tears

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e chair, I walked across the warm, cedar stained decking, sniffling and wiping my tears, lookin

ut right away and I grabbed it and went back outside, down the stairs to the driveway and the side door of the long Winnebago parked there. Kevin had bought it shor

a fresh look around at the well appointed quarters on wheels before moving to the front of the vehicle. I grabbed the faded black

cally come out and start it over the past year, checking the tires to make sure they were properly inflated and running

k brochures Kevin had spread out in front of me just over a year befor

so the behemoth could air out, I went

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ring to go out and do even so much as that, and were looking at me as if I'd taken tota

CBC followed their only good show with, one of my packed suitcases in hand. "I'll help you lug the

e on the road in time for University this fall!" Jarid angrily protested. He looks

charged, reinforcing what my doubts were telling me about how safe and easy my bori

and rot. Don't worry about this fall. I know this goes against everything I've ever told you, but we're going to live in the moment this one time because we'll never have this moment again and I'll never have this Summer with you again. Jarid, don't worry about your mot

f myself when I was her age in face and body except for her father's blue eyes, which she of course had to match up with

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groceries and then go pack, because you're coming to Victori

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with their complaining and woes about this and that and how I'd ruined their lives while I trie

'garage guy'. I gave them five hundred of Kevin's dollars and told them to get what they needed and to meet me in two hours back at the Columbia, as I'

on sale and perfect. Charcoal, a lighter and some f

r nice, snug fitting denim pair), a couple of light, short skirts, summer tops, tank tops, and cammies. Finally, I agoni

pped. Cheap department store stuff, I grabbed a bunch of i