What We Want

"Shut the fuck up!" He hit my face for the third time.

I choked on my tears and my weakness as I dropped with a loud thud on the bedroom floor.

What did I do wrong?

I trembled at the sight of him coming towards me as I hurriedly crawled back in total fear before he finally caught me and came on top of me to continue his assault.

"Stop..." I croaked out. I couldn't even recognize my voice.

All I did was love him. Unfortunately.

He didn't even bother to heed my words to stop or pay attention to my pain and groans. If anything, he enjoyed that sight of me in total squirm.

I grabbed his hands, clothes and anything for me to be able to fight him off of me but who am I kidding?

"Stop it Abel!" I tried to scream but he hit me so hard that I coughed up blood.

"I said shut the fuck up bitch!" He bellowed as I frail body gave up fighting his assault.

Then he laughed maniacally and tore my clothes away from my body.

I coughed up more blood as I tried once again to fight him off of me. I had to do this much because I couldn't afford to let him have his way with me.

His rough hands tugged at my undies.

"Nooo!!!"

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On that rainy day, my clothes were torn and I was barely even standing straight and collected in the middle of the road and in the middle of the night. I couldn't tell where I was or how I got there, it was so dark and I felt my feet ache. I looked down at my feet and saw blood, dried blood and more blood all over me. I don't remember anything but strange thing is that, I wasn't shocked or terrified at the sight of it. I just felt...

Just then, bright headlights shown on me, followed by the car halt. I felt numb. The driver's side opened and the car driver got down and came towards me. I didn't move, I couldn't, cause my feet seemed rooted in the ground. It was a he, I couldn't see his face because the lights concentrated on my sleepy eyes and that same light seem to illuminate him.

He appeared to be a giant coming to just flip me out of the way so he could continue his voyage but he didn't do that, yet. He just looked down at me patiently and didn't budge. Is he a psycho? Oh God! I can't deal with such a personality at this time or anytime at all especially this time because I feel a mix of numb and I feel shitty and out of this world at the same time. Or is he someone who had caused the crash and has come to finish me off? I fully noticed a Lexus Rx pressed in two from the corner of my eye. So this is it! This is finally it! This is my end! I'm finally going to be wiped out of this world with no trace, with no family.

Wait, who are my parents? I felt a sharp tug at my heart and I discovered that I couldn't remember a face, or name, or where or how I ended up in the middle of the road and without that information, it was devastating enough and I guess I should feel automatically inclined to completely and ultimately disappear from the face of the world.

I felt cold and I could tell my insides also shiver but one thing that was happening that I begged the stars not to let happen was the fact that my eyes didn't feel like mine. It continued shutting down without my permission and I didn't need it to and not at this time that I'm obviously at the mercy of my captor. Yes him. I still don't understand why he's still quiet in front of me and if not for my current state, I would have toppled him over with my tiny frame and beat the hell outta him but guess what, I'm numb. I'm tired and devastatingly numb!