The Mafia Boss Runaway Bride

EPISODE 001 - Time Machine

Is life truly unfair, or have we merely suffered because we believed that life was supposed to be painless and that everything should go as planned?

“I’m sorry, Madison…”

How many times did I hear those words already? I can’t count it anymore. I feel like I am already living the life of getting rejected every time I try to submit my portfolio to modeling agencies and apply to be one of their models.

I don’t know what is wrong with me. I have a good portfolio, good feedback from other modeling agencies that I’ve worked for before. Except that, even them, they won’t take me as their model anymore.

I’m trying to deny the fact that I know exactly the reason why they are rejecting my application. It is because of my jerk-ass ex-boyfriend, Matthew Evans. It’s been almost a year now ever since we broke up and it’s also been a year now ever since I can’t get a job because he banned my name from every agency. That’s how much power he has as he is one of the most famous actors in the whole of England now.

We never confirmed our relationship in the public, but he uses his fame to shame me, and make me suffer for dumping him. How could I not dump him? He was good before but he changed ever since he got the fame. He treated me like shit and even makes me feel like I am only after his fame and money.

He was toxic and manipulative. And even got the ass to cheat on me! That’s why I decided to dump him and didn’t let him explain his side to me. I just leave and blocked him, but that made him triggered and decided to pull the trigger and use everything he has to make me suffer and beg him to stop.

But I won’t do that. I’d rather die than beg his ass.

“It’s okay, I understand.” I tried to smile at Jessica, not to make her feel bad that she has to reject my application, even though I am the one who saved their company when they are drowning. “I’m going now,” although she rejected me, I still want to be nice and don’t act like a bitch just because of rejection. I am not like Matthew who cannot take rejection.

I waved Jessica goodbye and walked out of the office. I know I don't want to waste any more time here because I truly want to improve myself; I don't need to be a victim of evil men like Matthew.

But it is not easy to leave Matthew’s past behind.

I have to think of something to make his past fade away. It is almost 4:30 pm now. I have to do that something quick before time runs out.

I just need a little help from the universe, and then I can start my life again. My life with a purpose.

You don't expect life to be fair to you because you are a good person or you work so hard. Life has its own rules, it's complicated and not the same for everyone.

But the longer I try my best now to survive and get a job for myself, the more I get exhausted. A tear escaped from my eyes as I try to budget my 50 dollars left. What can I do with 50 dollars? I can only buy fast food for that and I don’t where else can I get more money to survive a week.

I don’t want to go and beg Matthew to stop torturing me; I don’t want to give him the satisfaction of making my life a living hell because of his misogynist ass.

I am on my way home now, thinking that I should probably just end my life so I don’t have to suffer anymore. And that I should probably just follow my parents and we can live a happy life in heaven. But when I’m by myself, I’m not sure if I’m ready to die. I don’t know if I want to kill myself. And if I’m going to do it, I should just do it sooner, not later. If it means that the only life I get is hell, what’s the point?

But maybe I’m a coward? Am I that much of a coward to care what Matthew thinks?

Maybe I’m more of a coward than I thought?

I don’t want to find out.

Maybe I’m not that much of a coward.

“Please… give… me… food…” a voice from an old lady snapped me back from reality. I looked around and saw an old lady with a lot of bruises on her body, lying on the ground here at the street beside some trash bin. She looks very weak and I didn’t see any other people around and there was no sound to show that anyone else was there. Then a thought occurred to me that this lady must be hungry and she must need some food. I thought it is better to ask before I approach her since we don’t know who this person is. So I thought that it is better to talk first. As I approached her, she said:

“Please, miss, I need food… I have been alone for a long time…”

When I looked at her, I was a bit amazed. She was an old woman, with wrinkles all over her face and on her chin. There was a lot of blood on her clothes. She looked old but didn’t look very bad. She looked like she must have been living alone in this place for a long time.

I only have 50 dollars with me, I ate lunch earlier, and honestly, I can go on without eating dinner at all. While this old lady looks like she wouldn’t survive anymore because of starvation. I blinked my eyes and didn’t think twice and went straight to the nearest restaurant and used my 50 dollars to buy her a meal.

“God bless you, miss. I am not worthy of such a blessing,” she said when she finished eating.

I was so moved that tears were coming from my eyes. I had tears in my eyes when I thought about what I have done. I felt like I was blessed by God and there is nothing I can say to this great grace.

How could you not say that there are so many blessings and mercies in life? I believe this God’s own spirit is in me and is guiding me. Sometimes I think, I am the happiest person in this world because of my life and my career. I thank God every single day for giving me such a rich life.

I watched as she enjoys her food. When she’s done eating, she suddenly asked me a question which made me chuckle.

“You have a pure heart, miss…” she began “If you will be given a choice between going back in the past of living in the future. What would you choose?” I find the question ridiculous as I don’t even believe in things like time machines or fantasy.