~Elena~
"You have glioblastoma, Elena, it's stage four." The announcement came as a shock because I should have known if something was wrong with me, but I didn't.
My eyes widened in disbelief as I locked gazes with the Doctor before me, questioning whether her words or she was lying. I had no idea what to believe.
''I... I have a brain..." I stuttered as I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. "how could I have not noticed all these years and you..." The tears streamed down my face. ''I mean i am supposed to know about it but why?''
The Doctor sighed and pointed to the screen, which showed a scan of my head. "If I had not told you to carry that test, Elena, we wouldn't have found out. The tumor hid itself perfectly without showing signs, and if I had not..."
"Doctor Mallory," I cut her off before she could finish. "I don't understand what you are saying. Do you mean that I have cancer and I didn't know all these while and...." I rubbed my eyes and sighed heavily.
"yes, Elena," she replied, pointing to the screen. "it is growing, Elena, and I know that you just found out that you are pregnant, and you are glad, but if you want to live a few months longer and....."
"live a few months?" I frowned at her. "what are you saying, Doctor? Are you saying that I am going to die?"
Doctor Mallory sighed and lowered her head for a moment, and when she raised it, she nodded in response. "Elena, I hate to break the bad news to you, but see here," she pointed to a dark thing on the screen. "The tumor is growing, and because you are pregnant, it is becoming more aggressive, and if you don't abort the baby, then you will...."
My hand slammed against the table. "What the hell are you asking me to do?!" I shouted, my voice cracking with disbelief. "Abort which baby?" I yelled, my hand instinctively reaching for my head. "I can't fathom what you're saying, but there's no way I'll terminate my baby!" I stated.
"Just last week, you confirmed my pregnancy, and now there's a tumor spreading rapidly!" I chuckled bitterly, clutching my head. "I haven't even told Owen about the baby, and now I'm facing death." I sighed and rubbed my hands together.
After enduring everything, this was to be my fate - to perish without laying eyes on my child. All I have ever wanted was to have a child, and now that I was pregnant after five years of my marriage with Charles, I was going to die with my baby or terminate my baby to have a few months to live.
"This is for your good, Elena. With the baby, the tumor will grow twice as fast, shortening your life, and..." she tried to explain, but I wasn't ready to hear her.
I had just found out about my baby, and if I wanted to leave for a few months, I had to sacrifice the life of my baby.
"I am going to die anyway, so why the hell should I let my baby die when I can save it," I inhaled deeply and grabbed her hand, holding it tightly. "Listen to me, Doctor. I don't know what you'll do or how you'll do it, but I need my baby to survive. Do any treatment; I will endure it all, but I need to ensure my baby survives."
Doctor Mallory yanked her hands from mine. "Have you gone insane, Elena? This is me talking as your friend, not your Doctor. I'm trying to make you see that you can't keep the baby and..."
"Doctor Mallory!" I interrupted her. "There is no way I will agree, and I don't know how you'll do it. If you can refer me to an oncologist, a good one who can help me until the baby is born, then I am ready, and I am..."
"Elena!"
"What!" I lowered my head as tears welled up in my eyes. "You know how it is with Owen. I want him to be happy that I am pregnant with his baby. We have long longed for a baby, and now that I am pregnant, maybe he will continue to love me, or maybe my mother-in-law will learn to treat me better. I can't announce to anyone that I have tumors growing, and..."
Doctor Mallory stretched her hand forward and grabbed mine. "I wish we could do something, Elena, but if you go through with this, you might end up losing the baby and also lose your life. It will all be for nothing. You'll die without being able to hold your baby."
Tears streamed down my face. Doctor Mallory knew how much I wanted a baby after everything. I was desperate for one because it was the only thing to make Owen love me again and earn his trust. Even my mother-in-law might treat me better once she finds out I am pregnant. I couldn't break the news about my pregnancy and tumor to them.
I couldn't.
"Elena, are you listening to me?" Doctor Mallory snapped her fingers in my face. "I think you need to tell your family. They are the only ones who can support you at this time."