I was going to live forever I knew that but for the last 150 years I still couldn’t come to terms with it, but off and on for the last 50 years or so I wished I would disappear forever and then be happy that I was alive and could witness the progression of man, and then wish I was gone again because they did something stupid and un-reprehensible but I digress. 150 years ago I was turned into a vampire by a man I thought I loved and who had abandoned me to my life of loneliness and despair, ok so I wasn’t in despair but living 150 years and wishing he would’ve let you die might as well be.