I Love You Perrine

The song ‘Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran’ started playing. Nice song for this wedding.

In the middle of the music, I decided to go inside the church. The interior design of the church was even more beautiful because of the red carpet, colourful flowers, and of course because of the beautiful and handsome bridesmaids.

Exactly four years ago when met each other here. At that moment I knew that he’s the one. The first touch of my skin on his skin, I felt different from him. I just saw him for the first time, I already fall for him. I think it’s a love at first sight.

I still remember how our eyes accidentally met, and I felt then I would melt in about three seconds when he looked at me and when he smiled my heart beat faster. Ever since I saw him he never left in my mind.

“Do you take him to be your husband? Do you promise to be faithful to him in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, to love him and to honor him all the days of your life?”

“Yes, I do.”

Is it really possible? To suddenly fall in love to someone you just met for the first time? My answer is, yes. Love does many things that we do not expect.

“Do you take her to be your wife? Do you promise to be faithful to her in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, to love her and to honor her all the days of your life?”

“Yes, I do.” Tearful answer of the groom.

I wiped the tears from my cheeks and hurried out of the church and answered the call of my friend, Gaira. I took a deep breath before I answered it.

“Hello, Gaira.” I tried to smile even though she couldn’t see me.

“Where are you?” Gaira ask me over the phone.

I took another deep breath to calm myself and not cry or not to crack my voice.

“W-Why?”

“Of course, We are looking forward to your return!” It's no longer Gaira, it’s Jhiezhl and I think the two of them are together now.

“Mrs. Perrine Saplala–Cariaga, where are you now?”

Mrs. Perrine Saplala–Cariaga. It’s nice to hear that my last name is already attached to the last name of the man I love.

“Give me my cell phone—Hey, Perrine! Where are you? We are waiting you here at our favorite café.” This is Gaira again.

My grip on the cell phone tightened. I am mad with myself because, I feel annoyed and angry with one of my best friends, Gaira, which I shouldn’t be. I can’t help but be angry with my friend and I want to slap her right now, but I know its not her fault.

“Maybe tomorrow. I’m a little tired.” My excuse to them.

Because right now I can’t face Gaira, and maybe I will slap her and pour out the annoyance I feel.

“The new Mrs Cariaga is tired on their honeymoon.” Jhiezhl is teasing me.

“Looks like you’ll have a baby sooner, Perrine.” Gaira was also teasing me. “Advance, congrats, Perrine.” She added.

“You are both crazy. Sorry, I have to go. Bye.” I immediately ended the call.

I quickly ran to where my car was parked. When I entered, I slapped the steering wheel to poured out all the pain I feel now also my anger at my friend Gaira, and my anger at myself.

Yes, the man I love married me, but he doesn’t have the slightest feelings for me, other than anger. He doesn’t love me. He hates me.

I took a deep breath then started the car and headed home. It was night when I got home. When I enter in our house I saw my husband in the living room holding a bottle of wine and three other bottles of wine on the glass table. He looks drunk.

I sat down next to my Husband. “You’re drunk, let’s go to our room.”

My husband looked at me. His eyes are already red also his smooth cheeks were red.

I touched the both of my husband’s cheeks, and he looked at me. “I love you.” I said with all my heart.

My husband smiled at me. Ohmygash! Does this mean that he is gradually accepting me?

“Did you know? I got drunk, so I forgot that I married the best friend of the woman I love.” He said and go up.

I took a deep breath and at the same time my tears flowed. A few minutes passed before I finally stopped crying.

When I put away the clutter, I went up to our room. When I held the door knob, it was lock. I knock a few times on our bedroom door, but my Husband still wouldn’t open it. Its looks like he was already sleeping. I just went to the other room, in our guest room.

The moment I enter in the guestroom, I immediately lay down. On the soft bed and closed my eyes.

My Husband and I just got arrange, that’s why we got married. At first, I didn’t want to get married because of the idea of the arranged marriage, but when I saw who I was going to get married, there was no vessel for the joy I felt at that time.

It’s the guy I saw in the church. He was more handsome up close. He had black hair, beautiful and thick eyebrows. Pierce his nose and smooth his face. He has a deep voice and a good smell of perfume. The man I dream of is the one I will be marrying? Is this destiny or what? I only know one. I am happy to marry the man I love.

Until we were about to get married.

Before we got married, he told me that our silly wedding would only stop if I will not go. I didn’t agree. He’s my dream man. But, he told me his reason. Reason that I almost did not attend our wedding.

He told me in my face how much he loved my friend, Gaira. He wanted to end our marriage during those times, but he could not let his parents fail him.

I was happy when my Husband told me he couldn’t afford to ruin our wedding. Because no matter what happens and for whatever reason, I will never let him go. I love him so much.

Last week is our honeymoon. Everyone knew we were very happy, what they didn’t know was my Husband left me and immediately came here. And I just came home today.

I smile.

I knew at first that my Husband will like this. I know, he will also learn to love me. Not like how he love my best friend Gaira, but he will accept me too. I hope.

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“I cook dinner for you.” I said to my Husband when he entered the house.

“I already ate outside.” My Husband replied coldly then he goes up.

I followed him. “Why do you smell of alcohol? Did you drink again?”

“So what?”

“Where?”

“At the bar.”