His Hidden Child️

I sit on the sandy beach staring meekly at the crashing waves before me, the moonlight that shone overhead was the only light that brought a soft scattered glow over the water and beach. It was a 5 min walk back to my villa from the restaurant I visited this evening and in all honesty, returning to that empty cold room was unappealing and made me feel more hollow than it should.

This trip to Bali was supposed to be my 6th wedding anniversary trip, my husband… well ex-husband… and I wanted to commentary the occasion with something big but we never got around to it … a sudden divorce put a damper on it.

At first, we thought of traveling around our home country but I wanted to go to Asia, I wanted to see the wonders of it. He told me if that was the case then I should fit the bill which I did which may have started the entire problem to begin.

It was fairly impeccable, I didn’t fight it, he went full steam ahead, and we had a prenuptial agreement in place, so dividing our furniture and leftover money was not a problem. It wasn’t even heartbreaking to break the news to the family considering he was the only one with a family.

I wasn’t aware that he was unhappy or that our arguments were divorce worthy, it seemed like I was unaware of a lot of things, especially with how he spent and how quickly money and wealth played a more important role in our marriage than it should of.

I worked 2 jobs online to keep up with our monthly expenses, which didn’t take anything away from him working, he tried to get his work off the ground but it didn’t pan out in our ever-changing economy, which I thought was fine… considering I was earning and I didn’t mind sharing my income but it turned out he did mind…

I sigh deeply thinking about my mother-in-law coming over and helping to pack up and move him back home. Our house was mine but I still shared half of the sale with him to get him on his feet and because as soon as the divorce process started I applied for jobs abroad and by some miracle my teaching experience as well as all my online work paid off and I managed to land a job in Japan without a degree as an English Teacher in the Adult learning center. The job came with an accommodation subsidy as well as health insurance and about a $36000 annual income. The best part of this opportunity was not the fact I had a career or my actual plan, it was the many students I already taught from Japan that were excited to welcome me. My ex wasn’t thrilled with the fact that he wasn’t about me adapting quickly and we had a few arguments while the divorce process was becoming finalized.