Defeated By Love

 Food For Thought:

Have you ever walked through life thinking you're worth so much more and you deserve the ultimate best...

But, you just can't seem to let go of the past and you allow your demons to haunt you no matter how much you tell yourself to grow a pair and live your best life...

Or, when you meet someone who ignites the fire in your soul and you're too scared to let him in.

Because, you feel you're not compatible together because you lead two entirely different lives.

So, you allow yourself to be too afraid to explore the chemistry between you lacking the desire to let someone in to caress your damaged heart, body, soul and mind.

Then when you do allow him into your body and heart. You find out that he wasn't the man you thought you knew or grew to love quicker than your next breath.

 Eventually, becoming well aware of why being together was like riding a roller coaster and you wished you had trusted your instincts in the first place and stayed well away from him.

No, just me?

Well, that's just fan-fucking-tastic...

*Sigh*

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My best friend Chrissy and I walk into the newest and hippest club in town. 

The atmosphere is electric as everybody's feeding off the music. Their hips are swaying and their arms are waving in the air like they just don’t care. Chrissy grabs my hand and pushes her way through the crowd of people at the bar.

“Hey.” She yells at the barman.

He smiles with a twinkle in his eye and walks over to us ignoring the other orders being yelled at him.

“What can I get you?” He asks, licking his lips as his eyes focus on hers.

I don't know what possessed her to do it.

But, like a bolt of lightning, she leans over the bar and grabs him by the collar of his shirt, kissing him passionately on the lips. To my surprise, he leans in and deepens the kiss. I stand there with wide eyes wondering what the fuck is going on. The kiss lasts a good minute before cheering erupts at the other end of the bar.

Chrissy pulls back and touches her swollen lips with her fingers and smiles with a glimmer of satisfaction in her eyes.

“Two Rum and Cokes with two of your strongest shots.” She yells over the music.

The bartender places our drinks down in front of us.

“I’ll make you a deal.” He says rubbing the back of his neck nervously. “If you save me a dance, I’ll give you this round for free.” He licks his lips tasting her kiss all over again and a little growl leaves his mouth.

“Deal!" She says blushing.

 He pushes the drinks forward.

We take our shots at the bar and then find ourselves a nice corner booth to sit at.

I take a sip of my drink relishing in its coolness as it slides down my throat right to my toes. I do a little shimmy in my chair and take another drink.

I look over at Chrissy. 

“Do you know him?" I nod in the direction of the barman.

Because that was too hot for her not to. 

“His name’s Conrad.” She sneaks another look at him and blushes.

“He’s built like a goddamn powerhouse. He might be a bit much for me to handle.” She nibbles on her lower lip.

“You'll be fine," I assure her. 

She still refuses to believe that she has an insatiable sexual appetite no matter how many times I've told her.

We hit the dance floor swaying to the music looking like a couple of drugged-up hippies. Our favourite song comes on and we jump up and down with excitement. The air is thick with sweat, smoke and booze with a hint of arousal.