Crawling back to love

S A D T E E N SERIES

Love me back to life.

Written under the inspiration of

Infinity by Jaymes Young

Chapter 1. (Felicia)

It was a very cool evening and the evening sun casted long shadows on the ground. The slanting rays of the setting sun gave a warm orange tinge to the sky. The sky was ablaze with the fire of the setting sun.

I heard a faint voice call my name from the balcony,

"Felicia! Felicia!" I knew for once it was James my boyfriend so I hesitated to answer.

Then he started throwing rocks at my window and his voice which was faint became louder.I felt so happy and sad at the same time.

Why?...He was blind.

After a period of thirty minutes I stopped hearing the sound of the rocks thrown at my window. I felt so relieved thinking he had given up and probably thinks I'm not around.

Two minutes later I heard his voice again ,

"Felicia! Baby please come out"

I then reluctantly opened my windows with a face as long a fiddle.

"Can you come back later?" I drawled

Then he gave me this captivating smile and replied a "no".

Almost blushing I asked why and he replied saying,

" Because I love you for infinity"

Different people have different perceptions, different vantage points about love and how it affects us individually.

My name is Felicia John and this is my story;

I had recently been diagnosed with Schizophrenia and I could still remember vividly the shock on my mother's face at the teaching hospital.

A month ago I started experiencing delusions and hallucinations and my thoughts seemed out of touch with reality. Infact, my life was turned up side down.

My first psychotic episode happened when I tried to save an old lady from being hit by a speeding truck but I was the one that almost got killed. The old lady I thought I saw, wasn't really there. I argued with my mom that there was an old lady at the middle of the road with tears rolling down from my eyes. I sustained few injuries on my face.

The weirdest thing of all is that despite all those things I had no clue that something was wrong with me.

Everyday was a mystery. My mother became worried after that incident and many other incidents that had taken place. She suggested that I should see a psychiatrist. I had no option but to agree because I love my mom and didn't want to be a pain in her ass.

My mom suffered a lot after my dad divorced her and she was also dismissed from work. My dad figured out that she lied about her age and filed for a divorce immediately.

Few months later he got married to his co worker.

Oh well,I wasn't surprised even though I became very depressed after he left.

My mom was devastated but she is a strong woman.

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That Saturday morning, my Mom and I were supposed to go to the hospital and the thought alone made me cry my eyes for hours. I had to cry quietly since my Mom was still asleep and I didn't want to wake her.

I made breakfast that morning; our same old powdered chocolate tea and wheat bread. My Mom was still asleep so I placed her own meal on a plastic tray and took it to her.

" Mom" I called her with my cracked morning voice.