Friendship or Love?

Oh I'm so excited for today. First ever long drive trip with my friends!! It would also be my first time looking or feeling snow. As always I was just being myself when have I not? Though my excitement bar was at max right now you could almost count it as over excited because of the rate it was going up and wasn't stopping any time around.

"Oh guys you know yesterday I read a novel I really liked it you wanna know about it?" I asked.

An uninterested Kasie answered while trying to straighten her clothes which are buttoned weird. What can I say? She calls it fashion.

"Tell later na not now. Just enjoy the scenery right now."

"C'mon" I pressured

Kat the one with short hair, short enough to make a pony. Now that I think about it none of us really have that big of hair. Me with the shortest. Kat is also someone who doesn't read anything but still likes hearing about stories. She looked at me and said

"You speak we'll listen"

Even though I know when I speak they'll not listen. But then also I just want to. I even know they are not interested and I can't force them but I have no one to speak to about these things so even if they don't like it or I just keep on telling them these things.

While I was telling the story and they were half listening and half not. I guess?

"So in the end when the villainess had to give up on him and acknowledge that she was wrong she ended up marrying another person and it was also a marriage of love just like our female lead and male lead. Oh I really like obsessive male lead." I gasped, took a short break before continuing

"The female lead did not know how to act with him so she thought he was a crazy maniac. Oh god if I was there instead of her I'd have given him lots of love. I feel what he feels so I know how much sincere he was with the female lead but she had to make a misunderstanding that was not even necessary." I stop to think back. Rummaging through my memory of how the female lead reacted to him when they first met.

"I don't understand her he was scary so what girl? He is cute, that obsessive personality is cute. But I also will say his ways to get her are a bit too much and he's a sadist. So that combination is very scary I understand but then also if I was her and if I would be scared of him and if it's too much for me I won't even meet him I'll just avoid him." I thought real hard as to would I really do that? Then I added when I couldn't find an answer.

"I just don't like her I'd do much better if I was in her place. I'd probably run away from him and avoid him. The female lead just doesn't use her brain.............." I stopped after hearing a crash.

What is happening? Why am I enveloped in flames what about my friends?! WHY? WHY?! WHYY!! WHY CAN'T I MOVE??!!!

"ANYONE? WHERE IS EVERYONE?? WHAT HAPPENED?"

Wait this smell, it's the smell of blood. I'm surrounded by it! I can't seem to get the strength to open my eyes. I'm not sure about the situation around. I stop to calm myself I can't afford to panic right now. When I thought I was calm enough I started to think what the situation could be.

What I think is that I was in an accident. Oh god! I was so into what I was saying I did not even notice what was going on and m-my friends. When I managed to open my eyes. I tried to keep my consciousness and look around trying to find my friends. My head hurts so much it's a very stinging pain I'm feeling so dizzy.

I-I can't keep my eyes open its too heavy my whole body hurts I don't feel like moving one inch b-but I'll have to for the sake of my friends. I need to move.

MOVE GOD DAMNIT I SAID MOVE!! Slowly I started to lose all my reasons and just felt calm. I thought of how if I die I'll be able to get away from this family that I love-hated.

How I won't have to be alone anymore because all I have is my friends and if I lose them too then what's the reason for me to be alive? I want to be with my friends longer. Argh if only I was with them longer I cried inside but didn't have enough strength to actually cry.

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I suddenly was able to open my eyes and for some reason it doesn't take much strength now. This is not a hospital. Where in the world am I? All I can remember is crying inside and have those ......thoughts.

I remember having consciousness for a while after my train of thoughts. W-wait could it be? Is this heaven? Can I meet my friends here if I cannot that means they're alright. That'd be a relief.

"Oh my madam seems like the lady is awake!"

"Oh is Amy awake?"

I hear two voices that I swear I've never heard before in my life. But the million dollar question is who in the world is Amy?? Isn't it rude to bring someone out of their deep train of thoughts? Is there any rule for that?

A woman with big golden eyes stared at me so intensely that I thought I was going to burn from that gaze. Now that I think about it she is beautiful those golden eyes with that curly pink hair. She just looks like a girl from a novel.

"Oh my child you're so cute ah and so special you know just now we got news that the Duchess and Marques also gave birth at the same time as me oh you 3 could be such nice friends I hope you do."

Hmmm birth? Same time? Wait is this not heaven? What's up with calling me a child? I tried to get up from the comfortable bed.

WAIT. For some unknown reason I can't stand up!! I tried to look down. TRIED! All I could see was my small squirmy hands. My brain stopped comprehending. What the hell? How in the world did I turn into a baby?

"My dear you forgot the earl too even the wife of earl Debbs gave birth the same time it's like 4 of them isn't it?"

Oh now who is this? Another person to break my train of thoughts? A big man with brown hair. I want to see his hair sway in wind because he definitely looks like a protagonist. Those brown eyes staring at the girl's happiness. Surely her husband.

"My My how foolish of me honey I was wrong. Yeah 4 of you my dear child."

Ok now hold on, wait a sec, just shut up for a while let me process.

"Waa hwaaa wa wa"

"Hmm is our baby too happy to hear that?"

That's not even close I'm just confused. Is perhaps god playing a trick on me? Let's see how much he can use me as a play thing. Bring it on god.

After 5 years

"Hah I was so dead wrong."

A woman with a simple but beautiful dress raised her finger and said

"Mm lady that's not how a noble should speak like that......"

"Nobles are pure and well behaved yeah yeah I know all that nanny you've told that to me 50 times already."

"It's rude to interrupt when someone is saying something lady don't cut my sentences and my lady it's not been 50 times yet. After 19 times you did not let me finish."

"What? But you did start so it should count."

"I did but I couldn't finish it so that should not count."

"........ I don't understand you. Whatever you win."

"Lady Amy as I said that's not how a noble should act like you should be well behaved and have the extreme knowledge of etiquettes and not just knowledge you should use it also."

"Ok ok well now it's 20 times I believe? You finished that one so it should count."

"....." The nanny looked defeated.

So where was I? Yeah, it's a real world and not heaven where god is playing with me. I feel so stupid now.

But it's not just any world it's the novel I was talking about before the accident. 'The notorious Grand Duke Sways Away the Mysterious Girl' like what the hell is even with this name? Just thinking about that novel name makes me want to just burry myself in a hole.

Well I'm from a viscount family so that's not the biggest issue here people will look down on me and my family. Well I don't care if they do anything with me but if they bring my family I'll definitely break some bones and while showing mercy I'll only break 3 bones. Otherwise the plan was a whole body. I wouldn't care a single bit about being a noble at that time I'd be a daughter.

So what I think is that Kat, Kasie and Kaasie are also here in this world I just need to look for them.

At 11 years of age

"Oh my Amy has grown so much. Now it's time for your debut too aw my mischievous little girl is gone."

"Um mom when was I ever 'mischievous'?"

"Oh always even when you woke up middle of the night tip toed your way to the kitchen to get some cookies. Ah and also the time when you beat up Marquis Daidorn's son it's all still vivid in my mind you're that little girl and always will be"

"Uhh I hit marquis' son because he deserved it nothing more or nothing less."

Aw my mom can sweet talk her way through huh.

'Chuckle'

"Yeah yeah get ready to go to the royal palace for your debut."

"Thank you, mom"

"Hmm what's up huh you never say that"

"Nothing I'm just nervous to make friends."

The viscountess gives me a doubtful gaze.

"Well ok then no need to be nervous, be you."

"You always be a mother try being like a noble too and give me my task."

"You don't like kissing up people's asses."

"True but I have my ways so just tell me viscountess."

"Call me mother or the sweet way you say mommy."

'Cough'

"So ok I need you to befriend the duke Rele, Marquis Enrece and ...... wait what's with that smile on your face. ...... Don't tell me you already knew I'll say those names?"

"Hehehe of course." I said laughing

"Oh really then who's the last one?"

"Earl Debbs."

"..... you knew"

"Yeah I know you mother you're still acting like a mother who wants her child to make some friends. Don't worry I'll make some REALLY good friends."

If they really did come here with me.

"You're too smart for your age."

"Aw really? Thanks."

"You cheeky little girl."

"Oooo mommy noble should not act like that. Now I know where I got that side of me from." I said laughing

"Huh you had to take the bad side huh well look at the time go and get ready NOW."

"Yeah yeah going"

Oh my this dress looks so expensive mom really does not act like a viscountess around me huh it's too much I'll probably tell her again to not waste wages on me like this.

"......"

Not to sound crazy but I look good.

My mother's golden eyes and father's brown hair. If this hair would have been even a little lighter I would have blonde hair.

"Wow my baby girls looks so sexy go and get a man too while you're at it."

"....... mom let's just go."