Lonely Hearts

As my mom kissed me good night and left my room; momentarily, a message came in on my phone. Picking it up from the bedside table, I glanced at it before I was interrupted - my casement window was pulled up as Christian jumped into my bedroom. All startled, I got off from the bed, "Hey, what's up?". "What d...", my voice trailed off before I could utter another sentence as he leans closer to me, pulling my slender waist closer to himself as his lips claimed mine immediately without leaving me a second thought.

My breath catches as his mouth presses to mine; I tried getting a grip of myself the moment my attention turns once again to his hand slowly creeping on my thigh, even higher under my skirt. "I've missed you", I heard a light groan as his voice gets lower and huskier with each word.

Slowly moving backward, I finally found my back against the wall with his body also pressing against mine so intimately that I felt exhausted and breathless. I eased away from him, his arms slowly letting me go as I felt my face being all drenched with a rosy flushed look with my chest rising and falling heavily.

I tried to get a hold of myself by pushing my hair as I said, "You can't just sneak in here and do that. My parents are around....", whilst saying that, I noticed a light smile creeped on his face as he straightened his back and retained his gaze at me.

"Didn't you get what I said to you earlier?", I rolled my eyes at him and continued, "I got your message". "Then I guess you shouldn't be surprised", his voice still sounding huskier. "Well... I'm not. Apart from you sneaking up on me like that saying you missed me, it still doesn't make any sense ".

'No. I guess the one who wasn't making any sense here was me. Christian was used to sneaking into my bedroom which I was okay with but at that instant, I wasn't thinking straight - adding to what he just did the moment he sneaked inside, or looking into my words 'cause I have something to tell him....'.

"Hey, chill okay?", I heard his voice rang out softly as he inches slowly towards me while I withdrawed me step a bit, he noticed my actions and paused on his track as his gaze on me went intent. I knew what he was doing but I didn't want it to continue 'cause I know the kind of effects that usually has on me.

"What's wrong? Why'd you sound angry?", he asked as I hesitated before my lips parted, "Um... actually I have something to tell you", I emanated each word slowly as my gaze turned soft which made him intrigued. "What's that?". "The thing is... earlier today, I've been having these signs in me which I wasn't sure of.... and I had to go check myself up", my voice drifted musingly.

"Okay?", his voice trailed off knowingly. I paused for a while as the words in my throat seems to suck up inside. I just didn't wanted to look pathetic Infront of him despite knowing how much we were free with each other. I lowered my head briefly and lifted it up again as I forced out each word in me, "I JUST FOUND OUT THAT I'M PREGNANT".

My voice rang out to him as I watched his expression turned emotionless and unfathomable. "Are you for real?", his words came as a surprise to me as I subconsciously tilted my head backwards and said, "Like seriously? Do I look like I'm joking or something?".

I emphasized out of nervousness as I licked my lips and continued, "Look, I wasn't expecting this and neither were you hoping it to turn out like this but it's the truth; and the worst part of this, is my parents founding out. I mean what am I going to tell them ", my voice was jittery but still, he remained silent .

His thoughts and expression was so unreadable for me that I begin to wonder if he was truly interested in what I was telling him. "Come on, say something", before I knew it, I suddenly became tearful with my voice sounding shaky.

"What'd you want me to say? I'm as confused as you are,Tess; and to crown it all.... fuck", he breathed and ran his hand on his hair. Though he voice emanated a glint of gentleness in it, I was still taken aback by his replies.

"Really? that's all you've to say? Oh, Incase you ain't aware, we're in this together, okay?", I tried to act firm but my emotions were really betraying me; and as I kept glaring at him, fresh tears kept on coursing down my cheeks.

Few seconds pasted and what I heard next was, "Not to sound rude but I need to clear my head at the moment". "What?", the next thing, he left, leaving me utterly surprised as my felt my body dropped down on the ground, unknowingly.

~

Yeah... he finally turned out to be a real jerk, abandoning me all by myself.

You know, I've always heard the common saying that all guys are the same but before I realized, I thought he was an exception; I mean, who wouldn't believe that after being treated the way he did to me.

I had to believe that he truly loved me, always proclaiming his love for me almost every single day which eventually turned me blind... and me realizing it was all a LIE? I experienced that a hard way.

Few years had to pass by, regardless; and I didn't abort my baby.... I just couldn't bring myself to do that.

I had him named 'Jeremy ', prioritizing him before any other thing. Jeremy became my pride and I cater for him.... of course, that was after I was done with college; my mom had to look out for him during those period which wasn't an easy thing for me as well.

Well, I guess this is where my story begins......