MY MESSED UP TEEN

My name is Anna and I'm 16 years old. My life pretty sucks as I am pretty famous at the hospital and rehab. I struggle with depression, I'm emotionally unstable, rape and family issues contend with the leftover pieces of my sanity. Yet for some odd reason my studies aren't really affected.

My life is full of experiences, I know right! I never had a beautiful memory. At least none that I can recall.

Never had someone to love me. I grew up in a broken home where nothing mattered except keeping secrets and pretending to be okay.

If my life had an eulogy, it would go like this ;

"WOE! TO THE PRINCESS OF THE DARK.

she walks amidst the dangerous sea

her soul crieth but all in vain.

Born to a life of dreadful whore...

her tears flow down a lake of sorrows

blood dripping down her flawless skin...

She cries but no one hears her plea...

Her voice echoes a sound of fear ...

Who can save her from herself?

Who would heal her deepened wounds...?

At night she crawls up to the dark

Seeking refuge in her pain...

No one seems to see her tears

for she lives a life of lonely days

Woe! to the princess of the dark..."

I always cried myself to sleep. Never had a reason to be happy. All I ever did was to drown in my thoughts and write my life in a poem; the only means I had of expressing myself. I never trusted anyone. My life was filled with fear from my parent's words "conceal it". A world of lies and deception.

It all started when I was about 6 years old. Mom never had a real bonding relationship with me...nanny did all her motherly duties and my father always had a bad temper.