DONNA JEAN V. LODIVERO'S POV

"DJ DONNA, what am I going to do? My boyfriend was angry with me because I made his cousin jealous! I didn't know that girl was his cousin!" I scratched my eyebrows when I heard his complaint. It's a simple problem but it's difficult for them to give a solution. Because doubt precedes them.

We are on air now and I have my own confession booth. My Kuya Daizo Hart himself gifted it to me while I was still in the dark world and he was still working on my surgery.

Yes, I'm blind and I've been like this for several years but I'm used to it. That even sometimes my operation was not successful but I never lost hope of seeing again.

Because I still believe that I will also be given a chance to see the beautiful scenery in the world. I want Kuya Hart to be the first one I see. My dearest older brother and my only big brother.

I was still in high school when our parents died in a car accident and I was one of the victims of that accident. But I survived because it wasn't my time yet. That's when I woke up from coma, all I could see was darkness.

If Kuya wasn't by my side, maybe I wouldn't have been able to handle it and then he's still thankful because he said I didn't leave him and I still fought death.

It was difficult at the beginning, because who can get used to seeing nothing but darkness? I did have a hard time but Kuya Hart supported me and for him I can handle it. As long as he is by my side, I will continue to fight.

"DJ! What else?! I can't live without my boyfriend!" I was startled because I heard the voice of one of my listeners again. Because I fall into deep thought.

"Pttff-"

"Brother, behave," I said weakly to my brother when I heard him refrain from laughing.

Really, oh. My older brother will only listen and then laugh at my harty's complaints. How about it, he has never been in love even once. He would rather take care of me than have a girlfriend.

He will be an old man if he doesn't find a woman to love because I have no plans to let him go. That's just a joke. My brother deserves to have a family that he can love besides me.

"What did your boyfriend's cousin do that made you so jealous of him, Harty?" I asked.

Harty 10.3 is the station of my booth because I want it to be my brother's name, because he is the reason why I became a DJ and we also have our own studio and once again when we invite a singer we also have a bus. Of course, we have our own driver.

Kuya Hart is because he is a doctor. He is also busy sometimes but he never lost time for me. Because I am his first priority. I am 24 years old but he treats me like a child.

"Dj Donna, I'm only slightly jealous. It's not really flashy," he added, accompanied by a really loud sniff.

I looked in Kuya Hart's direction, even though I can't see him, I know his right place and I can still meet his eyes. That's why sometimes it's not obvious that I'm blind.

My fingers moved to press a button and without us being heard. Because I will visit Kuya Hart.

"Brother Hart, eh," I said.

"He said he wasn't jealous, baby girl. Because he said it was only slight but he was screaming on the other line and still crying. Pttff-"

" Don't laugh at me! Maybe later on, you will be even more jealous of your future girlfriend. You'll see! I'll be the first to laugh at you!" I threatened but as if my brother would take it seriously.

"That won't happen, Jean. I don't know the word jealousy," he denied. He is really strong. Since he doesn't even have a girlfriend yet. Psh.

I also pressed it again so that I could answer something to the woman. "You know, Harty. You wouldn't really be jealous of your boyfriend's cousin if he didn't do something bad-"

"It was just a hug and they were really close!" he answered me. Oh...didn't let me finish talking.

"Ka-harty, jealousy is part of our lives, especially in love life, but you must always remember that jealousy has its proper place and if it is not at the right time, everything will be really complicated. All you have to do with your boyfriend is let him relieve his temper with you and wait for him to be the first one to go to say hello," I said in a long litany.

"He's really angry, DJ..."

"What did you do to make him angry?" I asked her again.

"I told her to go with her cousin and we're going on a break!" he shouted and I felt my senses.

"That's what I'm saying that jealousy has a place. If we are jealous, don't let the word separation come out of our mouths. Even if you just said it out of spite, it can still end up in a real divorce. Always remember, Harty friends. Even if the word break-up is a joke, it's still not good. Sometimes it becomes painful emotionally because it seems that the hastily saying those words seems to immediately ignore your feelings. Ka-harty, let's not exaggerate the one small thing you are arguing about," I promised at length and I reminded them all one after the other before I said goodbye.

I played a song that the girl requested earlier and somehow the weight in her chest disappeared. She said that she should just wait for what I said that her boyfriend would come to greet her. I am not wrong in my predictions. Because everything I say has come true.

"Eat first, Jean." I was just moving my wheelchair and I felt someone stop it to fix it in place.

I immediately grabbed the spoon. My brother didn't make me feel that I was useless. Because he also trains me in everything.

Kuya removed my hair that was blocking my face so that I could eat properly.

"Thank you, Brother," I thanked. Kuya Hart cooked caldereta.

Our bus has a mini-kitchen and also a mini-bed. That sometimes we sleep here but it's necessary only in a place where the police won't catch you. But my older brother is very connected to his superiors.

"Zed, come on first. Eat here first," he begged our driver who was my brother's friend. I forgot to call him to eat our dinner. Yes, it's just dinner time.

I felt him slowly walk towards us and he sat next to my brother.

"Aren't you stressed, Jean?" Ate Zedian asked me. She is a woman and Kuya Hart intended to take her so that I would be comfortable as well.

"Not at all. I'm used to it, eh," I answered while slowly eating.

They are both the same age and Ate Zed is not really a driver anymore. Because he is also a writer, he said that being his driver is only a part time job because he wants our bus to always roam.

"Who can't get used to it, how many years has he been like that?" brother promised.

"He doesn't know how to be jealous, Sister Zed," I said.

"It's like that when you're not in love, Jean," he agreed, making me frown.

"Eh, is that you?"

"Neither. Is jealousy eating him, DJ Donna?" he asked amused and I frowned even more.

"Oh, maybe you and my brother don't feel jealous because you really have a secret look at each other that you both don't obsess over other people!" I exclaimed and I just heard something that seemed to fall on its plate. Ate Zedian coughed one after another.

I grinned because my guess and the atmosphere I felt around us were still right. When did I make a mistake?

I've been really feeling this for a long time but I only said it now because they agreed. Is jealousy really edible?

"Damn, are you okay, Zedian?" brother asked worriedly.

"I'm..."

I was still eating with a smile and I knew that they were both staring at me.

"Brother, Sister. It's not good if we hide our feelings. Because we might get caught, we will regret that we did not convey that to someone when he found someone else. But you said you don't know the word jealousy because you have feelings for each other. You see that no one person can enter your life. The question is... How long will you be like this?" I asked and they didn't answer.

Donna Jean V. Lodivero, 24 years old and I became a teacher in coming to love, a DJ and in my dark world I delivered good lessons, love life of others. But believe me, I still have no experience when it comes to love. But I believe that the day will come when I will also meet someone and feel that love.